Does this picture resonate with you?
For years, or to be accurate for more than 10 years, I used to be this girl. I used to be a slave to the numbers on the scale and my self-worth, mood, motivation and confidence was depending on the number. If it went down, I felt great and thought I could conquer the world, if the number stayed the same or even went up, I was down, moody, grumpy and just felt fat and big.
It all started when I was 16 and my dad talked about the “perfect” model body 90/60/90 and was jokingly asking me if I had that body. He was never aware of what those comments did to me. I wanted to be liked by my dad and tried my best to get those measurements. I started skipping meals and ended up having only one meal a day, I weighed myself couple of times in the day, went for runs and eventually was throwing up food that I ate.
My parents didn’t notice anything for few years other than that I lost lots of weight. People with some sort of eating disorder or bad relationship with food find ways to hide their issues. They find different reasons why they don’t eat certain foods, they binge in the night when everybody is sleeping, they exercise more than necessary, etc.
The scale determined the happiness of my life for many, many years until I left my original country (which is Germany) and came to New Zealand. I didn’t have a scale or a measure band, just the mirror, my pants and my intuition to decide how I feel about my body.So, why am I telling you this?
I am telling you this because I am proud of how I could kick ass those behaviors and that attitude. I learned to love myself the way I am, I stopped dieting for EVER and now I AM FREE!
I don’t spend my energy on thinking about food, weight loss or use food to numb my emotions. I feel them.
I also found my passion for helping people who are having similar issues and that fact makes it worth to have gone through those years of study. It was learning and had purpose. I just didn’t know it at that time.
I am also telling you this because I am aware that many people look at me now and don’t belief that I have had any struggles with body image, food or confidence. But I did. And that is what makes me to who I am today. I am passionate about what I do, I am compassionate with those who struggle to love themselves, hate their body and see food as an enemy.
I created a short video about this topic. If you have couple of moments, have a look here.
I want you to know that you can achieve that freedom with food and make peace with your own body as well. You can overcome food addictions and emotional eating. And if you really need to lose weight, that will happen automatically. I promise. Once we feel compassion and love for ourselves, we start nourishing it. Think about it, how do you treat your children? Do you want the best for them? Do you want to give them the best and healthiest foods? Well, how are you different? You are not. You are that child.
If you would like to achieve that freedom with food, start loving yourself and your body, book a consultation with me to discuss your concerns and issues by emailing me firstname.lastname@example.org or visit my www.yogini.co.nz page and check out my FOOD FREEDOM program.
You can also get a consultation voucher as a present for yourself or somebody who you love. We will talk about food and health concerns and establish a plan how to conquer those challenges.